Graduation and the Future

I graduated from BYU this last August. Like, for real, I graduated. I wore the cap and gown and tassel, I walked in Commencement, I walked in Convocation, I even played a solo on my French horn during my college's convocation, I got a diploma case, shook the dean's hand, and took a million pictures with my family. This is for real, people.

These are my siblings, they almost dropped me on my face. Do you see the terror in my eyes?

Graduation was an amazing experience, but also super bittersweet. I've been at BYU for seven years. Yes, seven years. I know, I know, it is a very long time to be in college. But I learned so much, you know, because of all the classes :). Seriously, though, these last seven years have been so life changing.

I have gone from wanting to be a professional musician, to wanting to study geological hazards, to wanting to read and write, to not knowing at all. That is where I am now, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, and it looks like I am, in many ways, grown up.

Here I am, an adult now. Technically I've been an adult for years, but it has never really felt real until this moment when my safety blanket of undergraduate classes and part time college jobs is gone. Now I'm not just biding my time until graduation day, I'm living the future that I never thought about and, yet, always did. It's my life to live, to make into whatever I want it to be.

So, what do I do now?
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